It is said when a person is in true love,to get it in there life one does try every possible thing one can do,even one tries to approach impossible things too.I also did the same.All people who knew about this told me that Iam not accepting Gods wish ,instead Iam being stubborn.But it was not about being rigid,it was getting that person back in my life for whom I have been waiting whole of my life,the kind of connection I feel for that person.On hearing his voice it felt as if my soul has been drawn towards him.I have been magnetically attaracted towards him.He had been forcing me to marry someone else and everytime I refused giving him this same reason of feeling...that feel which I get for him...that feel which cannot be expressed in words.That feel which bonds a child with his mother,it has no words,that feel which bonds a devotee with its God...it was that same feeling which I has for him.
There's a saying "EYES ARE THE MIRROR TO ONES SOUL",its true.He always denied his love for me,bt simultaneously I could what he was unable to see.I can clearly see his love for me,that he loves me like crazy,madly.deeply,truly,but due to fear he never accepted it.I would rather say that he himself does'nt realise how much he loves me.It is not always necessary to say those words of love everytime because when you are into that depth of emotion it is really not at all important to express it in words,your eyes,your smile ,your body language,your single body cell can feel it and responds it back in the same manner.So even if how hard you try to cover it up,all in vain.
His eyes were my medium of conversation,cause I knew everytime I will talk about his feelings there was always a topic change.I was after his life to break his silence and to confess his true feelings but he never did ,he just suppressed it somewhere deep inside heart where no one including himself can explore it.The day when I started my spiritual journey,depth of my emotions (all my emotions) increased.I could feel all my emotions deep down in my soul.I being the Chaser n he being the Runner were actually behaving like "Tom n Jerry".I tried each and everything to get him back in my life but all in vain,all my efforts failed.That feeling when you have been waiting all of your life for that person and all of a sudden when out of nowhere that person pops out that overwhelmed feeling cannot be expressed in words and suddenly when that Love phase is over and that person is gone from your life,its hurts so badly.That pain is unbearble.And when you are left all puzzled ,you have no answers to your questions ,that person is also not ready to talk there is no way left for you other than God.Exactly same happened with me.I also started meditating to find answers to all my questions.There was no peace in anything,it felt as if your life has been ruined .
There's a saying "EYES ARE THE MIRROR TO ONES SOUL",its true.He always denied his love for me,bt simultaneously I could what he was unable to see.I can clearly see his love for me,that he loves me like crazy,madly.deeply,truly,but due to fear he never accepted it.I would rather say that he himself does'nt realise how much he loves me.It is not always necessary to say those words of love everytime because when you are into that depth of emotion it is really not at all important to express it in words,your eyes,your smile ,your body language,your single body cell can feel it and responds it back in the same manner.So even if how hard you try to cover it up,all in vain.
His eyes were my medium of conversation,cause I knew everytime I will talk about his feelings there was always a topic change.I was after his life to break his silence and to confess his true feelings but he never did ,he just suppressed it somewhere deep inside heart where no one including himself can explore it.The day when I started my spiritual journey,depth of my emotions (all my emotions) increased.I could feel all my emotions deep down in my soul.I being the Chaser n he being the Runner were actually behaving like "Tom n Jerry".I tried each and everything to get him back in my life but all in vain,all my efforts failed.That feeling when you have been waiting all of your life for that person and all of a sudden when out of nowhere that person pops out that overwhelmed feeling cannot be expressed in words and suddenly when that Love phase is over and that person is gone from your life,its hurts so badly.That pain is unbearble.And when you are left all puzzled ,you have no answers to your questions ,that person is also not ready to talk there is no way left for you other than God.Exactly same happened with me.I also started meditating to find answers to all my questions.There was no peace in anything,it felt as if your life has been ruined .
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