BEGINNING OF MY SPIRITUAL JOURNEY

            

It all began when he left me...my spiritual journey started when suddenly he went away from my life,promising me that all this is happening for good.Everything happens for a good reason.According to him this distance was good.He told me that we are seperating for good,maybe someday we will realise this strange feeling going inside us.Maybe oneday we will realise that this feeling is something not belonging to this world...it is something eternal,very pure.He admitted that he is also having this same feeling that the more he tries to go away from me by ignoring me more closer he is coming to me and my soul.He assured me to be calm n stay positive that everything will get resolved soon.

But all this assurance was in vain.I had a strong intuition that things are slipping from my hands.I can clearly see that things are going to be worse,and inspite of all my efforts of explaining him i felt as if he is just hearing what i was trying to warn him but he could not listen to what i was saying.Something was wrong I could sense it,i wanted to stop so hard but I felt as if something was preventing me from doing so.

His absence started killing me.That home was no longer a home to live in,it was just a house of bricks.There was no longer that liveliness,that fun,that love which was there,which made that place to live in.Instead there were only memories left behind ,which were haunting me every second.I ran in search of peace but was not getting it anywhere.That feeling that something is going out to be wrong was so intense that no assurance could help.And it came out to be true,first week of august he disclosed that he is getting married  and now nothing can happen between us.All this was so sudden I was not able to understand that was this was destined to happen or it was the law of attaraction which was playing this game.My life was ruining and I was like a helpless fish which when taken out of water strives hard to breathe and keep trying to search for water so that it can get back its oxygen.

Days passed and I kept searching for peace in the outside world...wasted my time in crying to get my

love back.
And then after failing in all my attempts I finally surrendered myself to meditation......and there began my journey into wholeness towards another Soul and God.